You know you’re really deppressed when it takes such a large amount of energy and will power to change from your pajamas into regular clothes.
It’s amazing how you can be on the max amount of anti-deppresants, mood stabilizers, and anti anxiety meds that I’m on and still have all the deppression, mood swings, and anxiety that I have. I know that it’s better then not being on them…but I feel like I need more and more and more.
Right now I am very discouraged, anxious, feeling like I need too have my mouth sewn shut because I feel nothing I say comes out right, and that it’ll keep me from binging all the things I can’t say and don’t want too feel down. This is not how I want too feel right now, especially not right now. I don’t smile because of happiness, never, I don’t even know what that feels like. I smile out of joy, and I just don’t feel that now. I feel like just hiding, shutting down, because I’m so overwhelmed. I just don’t know what too do. I feel completely powerless.